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Sunday, August 29, 2010

happy weeks

so how was my week...been great actually....break fast at lina's plc on monday....den. mine on wednesday...while nabee's was on thursday...however, i didnt turn up cos my ezlink card has no value...sorry nabee.....but d whole of last week....met amdan almost each day just to feed his tummy...pity him huh??? lolx.....

and also...last week....celebrated hendra's bdae at lau pa sat...i swear my tummy smiling happily cos it is damn full...... den on sunday...went out with my beloveds cuzzies.....(all piqs of my activities is in fb)dine at fish n co.....den off to Nabins to shisha....hmm..yum yum...hahahahah......

now, im happily studying for my final year exam......stay at home and do some cooking when ever i want to....n uploading piqs in fb.....updating u, bloggie....n fasting...lolx......orito...i guess dts all ive to say....i miss all of u...muaxie muax muax....

5:15 PM **

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Hey it's 20th Aug 2010...

1stly, I wanna wish Aziah a wonderful 19th burfdae. I dunno whether she will come

across this post or not... whatever it is, I still wanna wish her although

we're in a complicated situation... have a good bdae, dearie...

Next, is for Parames... happy 22nd mths anni to you, beloveds(you n sara)...

no matter how many hardships you 2 went thru... i salute ur strengths!!

hahahahhahahaha...

Lastly, tomorrow is my nephew's bdae!! Happy, happy Bdae!! Will get ur Ben 10

products if i found it, baby... lots of love from ur aunty farah...

P.S. I'm waiting for d day he'll tell me his love is false too.. if he can lie for little things, I bet he can do it bigger...

10:33 AM **

Thursday, August 19, 2010

i swear..im damn bored today...i wanna break fast alone somewhere...cos im very bored...will go off soon enough.....haizzzzzz.........

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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

in school 2...

having a good time in school library with amdan today....he is trying so hard to beat my high score in bejeweled blitz..while im struggling to make sure that i hit higher so he wont be able to do so....lolx.....i swear i got stressed out.....all bcos of him...n he is super duper notty..when i was playing, he is trying to distract me...so that i will lose..lolx....

den, come to his turn....where i distract him...lolx...n he is not happy with it...hahahahahhaahahhahahaha.....cute baby boy of mine...haizzzz......for hours here..playing bejeweled blitz...lolx....baby, i miss having fun with you like this....we shall have more soon..ok??? i miss u n i love u....even though ure just beside me..i still miss u like as though ure 5 miles away....

5:48 PM **

in school....

with my beloved boyfie in school...out of d sudden, He LAUGHED!!! must be nuts...but, i just ignore him...anyway...feeling damn bored now...cos supposed to watch movie smwhere..but he just cant make up his mind...hence, we're in school library now...using computers...n im pissed off now cos..the computer that im using is making my life like hell by crashing on and off...haizzzzzzz....

BABY, I WANT TO BREAK FAST @ JURONG WEST CAN????? im sure there's a mini bazaar ramadan like last year.....please.....today i feel so hungry that i think i can faint at any point of time...haizzzz.....

2:42 PM **

Sunday, August 15, 2010

buke at uncle's hse ydae...

had fun meeting my darling families....really miss my aunties' cooking.....there's tom yum...tortilla....nasi bukhari.....yummy yumm yumm......heeheehee.....

9:09 PM **

karaoke @ bt timah shopping mall

went karaoke with sharon, nabee, parames n amdan...with my aching throat..i strained my voice...haizzzz....but im so fine now....hee....had a lovely time...we shall have more of the karaoke/bowling/pool outing k???love all of u!!! i owe sam of u a lot!!!

8:43 PM **

2nd aug 2010

after i ate this banana...reached home....butt says "lemme vomit...please!!!!!"

dine @ MegaBite w lina, parames, sharon n nabee...for the last time...if im nt wrong...i ate BANANA only...cos tummy whispers to me...."im full! im full!"..lolx....den, off we go...cos i really cant remember where we head to after that....lolx...

8:33 PM **

ndp...

nope..not flowers for people who is not here anymore...but this flowers are sharon's,nabee's,parames's n mine!!!hee......thanks parames!!! my flower is still surviving up till tdae....had a blasted day on 9 aug 2010...tho im sad due to the shocking news of my ex classmate..n oso about me n amdan thingy....but yet, im still having fun time!!!

8:15 PM **

Thursday, August 12, 2010

2 years 3 months 2 weeks 3 days......

where are all those moments? those laughters...those joys...those jokes..those teases...i miss them all...miss them so much... no matter how happy i am now with him, it is not the same anymore...is this the kinda changes he mentioned before?? i think so... but it seems drastic that i, myself couldnt handle it...but i still have to live with it, right?

i smiled, i laughed, have so much happiness but yet, im feeling a lil bit lost...like as tho there are something missing....n i assumed that i know what is missng but, i cant trust my assumptions completely right?..

haizzz...i just dont know my true feelings now...it is very scary when u dont know what ure feeling cos...when ure uncertain, there will be many things gonna come by....tears, sadness, madness, sorrows etc etc etc....i just gotta stay strong and be hypocrite to myself...

i gotta lie to myself to stay happy, i gotta pretend, when i feel like crying, i'll laugh hard to stay cheerful..when i feel down, i'll continue to smile....but..........no....i swear i cant do it...cos thats like murdering my true self....i just wannabe me...just me...not pretending to be somebody who isnt me......

urgh!!!! im just so...................lost n cant think of something right now....someone, do help me....

2:05 PM **

miss blogging

dear bloggie, im sorry for neglecting u for quite sometime.... but now, when i have my free time, i'll try my best to keep u updated with all the things ive been doing..

1) i wanna tell my beloved, who is an ex ping yian, to stay cheerful always like when she is still with us....i was shocked that she has to go but still, there is nothing much we can do..... Tan Xiu LI, we will remember u and all the good deeds uve done.... May God Be With You... We love you, sweetheart....we love you....*praying for her*

2)i wanna tell another beloved of mine and that is Amalina....stay strong...no one ask for the things that happened in your family...but what we can do is to pray hard that your brother is doing well...like i told you, it is not easy...i know it is not easy..but yet, we have to face it with no fear just to motivate us so we can continue with our lives.... dont think too much ok?? it is not your fault...and not you to be blame of....this is 1 of the obstacles given for u and your family to face....i love u...the rest love u too...

3)so finally, school ended last week....and i already starting to miss all my friends....all the nonsensical jokes...the laughters...the happiness....the tears...the things we shared....the things that made us aware of something that can be useful in part of our lives....everything...i just miss everything....even the last outing to City Hall to watch fireworks on 9th August 2010...is not enough to occupy this loneliness...and to heal the pain of missing every single one of them....

4)about amdan..n me..

1:24 PM **

Sunday, August 1, 2010

p24 BBQ @ pasir ris park...

had so much fun with the whole class n mr tan that saturday.....though it was a tiring day for me...but yet i have the courage to stay up till 1 noon on sunday...hahahahaha........after the fyp project meeting...reached home and slept almost the whole day....damn tired....n the tiredness drag till today....lolx...cos presentations finally over....n blah,blah, blah... tomorrow MEGACODE test...dammit man...i just thot of having sam time for myself.....lolx...but seems like i dun have the time.....haizzzzz

*more piqs in fb*

4:09 PM **

NAPFA-15jul

hahaha....over too...i think..napfa in poly is much much better than in primary or secondary school days..haha..cos we, girls are only supposed to participate...hahahahahahah......but, our dear friend, lina got injured on the same day....n was brought to NUH...but now she is out....well and healthy....still have a hard time due to her back...but she is fine.....glad to see her back....

3:57 PM **

welcome back to school lina.....

pity this petite lady...haha..but den, im glad she's healthy and well once more...muax..miss ur craps, lady....but damn.....after that injury...ure getting LOUDER!!!!!

did it affect your voice box or something???

3:46 PM **