i am superduper need a major rescue out there...
i wasnt in a good condition since last sunday....
having this pain in my tummy baby....
gosh....it is super extraordinarily unbearable....
it is time for me to report myself in the hospital and get admitted there....
omg...
i dont bother to tell my family about it after my mum went ballistic with me on friday...know what happened??
she only saw me n my guy...so whats the big deal???
not like as if she doesnt know that im still going on with him....
she is just a major pain in the ass....
and my sister such an I-pos!
know what is that??
it is...
IRRITATING PIECE OF SHIT!!!!
how dare she told my guy to heed what my mum wants and said they are lenient enough not to cuff me in when they are actually doing it!!
tell her just screw that little mouth of hers with her husband's dick....
and she also dont even know what my mum really wants..
how possible she wants my baby to do so....
my mum only want us to break up...
and that is so...not possible.....
and ive been acting she doesnt exist in my life for 2 days already...
im not trying to be rude and being unfair ok...
but i do have my own stand too....
if she cant accept the fact that im going on with a tattoo guy....then, i wont be able to accept the fact she wants me to break up.....
and my mum hinting me ok...
"you really wannabe with him is it?"
ha!
of cos i do...but what can she possibly do??
she cant possible said you can be with him as much as you want as long as you finish your studies...
what she is trying to tell is....if i said yes directly to her face that friday....
she will simply kick me out of the house...
and that is exactly what i need.....
thanks alot mother.....
WORDS FOR
1) MUM
in case you really throw me out of the house....please dont acknowledge me as your child anymore ok? and i got my stand...and this is it....
thanks for all your efforts for raising me up....with love and care...but this is not the treatment that i want....u give me everything....love....care...concern...trust..but...only one thing i cant get from you....and that is being an understanding mum...
only if you can change a little bit like what you expect from me...you will understand why im still out with this guy...bcos y?...i will be able to explain to you....about him..his background...his family...only if you able to control your temper...i will bring him to see you and talk...but you dont....you're still the way you are...if you cant be a role model for me to change for the better....
i wont be able to change too....
just want you to remember the first few line i said,mum...
i love you mum..
i never hate you....
2) SIS
sister...if you wanna know....you get things straight out from me ok? you only heard stories from mum...all bad things that you hearr from her...but do you even care to ask me about my relationship with him? do you even care to ask me how happy am i to be him? you have never ask me sister...
and why you bother telling all that to my guy when you dont even know the whole story?
it is true what you said....you've went through all ups and downs during my age now...
so, let me be will you?
you're no better enough when now you're status is MARRIED!!!
so dont dare messing around with other people's love life when you need some maintenance to be done too....
you're not being rude to anybody at all sister...but just bear in mind...if you only listen to one side of the story...you will never know how true can it be....
be true to yourself first sister...
thats the only thing i can tell you....
3) DAD
dad....thanks for the shelter and all the pocket $ you provide me....
but, to me..that is your responsibility to provide me with that...but it is not your responsibility to make decisions for me..like mum did...
none of you has the power to decide for me...except me, myself...
you can only guide me to the right path...but when it comes to making decision....all of you can only give me your opinions and views...
but the final decision lies in my hand....
and the consequences im gonna face alone....
and that is not from me....
it is from the one who create my life this way....
and that is ALLAH.....
im sorry for saying this way...
but this what im gonna say...
i will wait for another 3 years....
the age where i should have my freedom to breathe and spread my wings.....
by 21...if im gonna get the same treatment....
i will leave all of you for good....
im so sorry....
5:55 PM **
darus!!!!
pose for me please baby orchid!!!!
muax!!!!
and you take mine...okok???"
the heart shape cloud...
emo farah...hahahaha
when we are going back...we took the last snapshots of the henderson waves from the bottom....
then...we went to bukit merah to eat.....n off to pandan gardens.....den im off to school...for my last paper......
