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Sunday, May 31, 2009

had wedding

thing since ydae......kinda tiring now.....haix....cos...it has been a long time....that my feet off from heels...and when they had the "feel" of heels ydae and tdae.....they ache like CRAZEEEEEYYYYY!!!!!

urgh!!!!

pity my beloved, pampered feet.....muax22!!!haix...

so tdae...before i went out to hougang for the wedding thgy....i camwhore 1st......in fact....it has been quite sometime that i stop using my webbie to take piqs...so here it goes.......

i look.....well....a bit distorted in all the piqs.....i duno y...maeb bcos....im still devastated with wat happened few days back...haix......

here....im the cab.....beside me....is my mum......

above here.....are all my nephew's piqs....

BABY ARMANI!!!!!hahaha.......if u cancel the "i" from his name.....it bcame ARMAN.....and that is MY BABY AMDAN's DAD's name...hahahhahahaha

I MISS AMDAN LIKE HELL.......

although we're not on a good term this few days....

i still miss him like hell....

i really miss hugging him and tease him .....

and look into his eyes.....and say......"I LOVE YOU,BABY ORCHID"

8:50 PM **

Friday, May 29, 2009

after seeing something...i guess...im still......just a lonely kid.....wanna noe why??? look at my girlfriends....busy with their own things with their own school friends.....and me???just being like a workaholic.....with projects....with exams.....attachment!!!haix........no matter how many friends i have around me....i am still not contented......not to mention having my baby in my life too....with or without him....im still just a lonely freak.....

and people....dont say this to me k??

1) cheer up...we are still here to entertain you...

2)cmon.....we are not gonna abandon you.....

3)We are still here for you......

and blah....blah...blah......

cos i just find it only WORDS without MEANING to it....

JUST SAY IT WHEN YOU MEAN IT!!!
BUT DONT SAY IT IF YOU ONLY WANNA MAKE ME FEEL GOOD....

no matter how sincere your heart is for saying so....

i wont trust you 100%....

cos i cant....

i shouldnt...

and i will never trust anybody 100%....

not even myself..............

AND THANKS ALOT FOR KEEPING ME SMILE ALL THIS WHILE.........

BUT I SHALL SAY GOODBYE TO ALL THE SMILES COS I DONT WISH TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE IT WHEN PEOPLE ARE ONLY DOING IT

COS THEY ARE SO-CALLED BEING FORCED!!!!

11:48 PM **

i was so happy early morning...

i passed my practical exam...who doesnt feel happy ryt??? in fact, im left with 1 very last presentation before term 2 start in a few months tym....haix....time really flies fast.......but unfortunately, in the evening....i got an unexpected news....my grandfather just passed away....i was extremely devastated...but im keeping it cool.......just pray hard for his soul to rest in peace on the other side of the world...

"grandad....everyone loves you...but you know ALLAH loves you the most....i will pray hard for you...may you have a blissful live on the other side, grandad.....im gonna miss you so much....miss how u talked so much....miss all your craps....i will miss seeing you limping with the crutches under your armpit....i will miss you who loves bringing us in your car to changi beach to see the BAPOKs.....and eat the nasi lemak all the time we went changi.....im gonna miss going camping with you and the others....and see you fish with my dad n uncles...and mostly....i will miss watching you TEASE GRANDMUM when she is angry....and i know....GRANDMUM MISSES YOU MORE...cos she has been the one who went thru all ups and downs with you, grandad......she will MISS YOU SO MUCH...just like i DO......i love you grandad......i love u so much........"

1:14 AM **

Thursday, May 21, 2009

so here we go!!!

well...the moment that my nsl teacher gave us a short break, i took the GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY....

to lie on the empty bed which was meant for the maniquin....

hehehehe...

and i was dead bored...

so took out my phone.....

and took pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahah......

oops!!!!

mind my boobies....

hahahahahah....

cool huh??

i really turned the class like my own room!!!

hahahahaha......

BLUEK!!!!!

well....im trying to seduce my new guy in class!!!

this i swhat i had for lunch...

chicken soup of the day!!!

plus garlic bread....

and what i like the most...

my drink!!!

thai milk tea or watever it is called....

the same drink that parames and me ordered!!!

yummy-yummy!!!

so...after school...met my baby and Ismail at jurong west....

i was so....moody...

know why???

cos suddenly i feel like vomiting....

and...after we ate...and reached jurong lake park...

i got a major stomachache....which in need to go to the toilet!!!

so......after i released all out at 1 go...

im so hyperhappy!!!!

then, i got the mood to play and have fun at the park....

heheheh....

but too bad....there was lightning..

so we went to the shelter area and sat and talked..

but i was practising for my practical exam on amdan...

while ismail watched and laughed his head off...

tsk3.....

and u know what???

i said INFANT BATHING!!!!!
and suddenly....ismail said...

ELEPHANT SOUND!!!!
what does that got to do sia with infant bathing????

he is super short circuit!!!

tsk3....

well...i duno what i was trying to do here....

hehehe....

then, we went to meet 1 of amdan's god sis...

well...she kinda ok to hang around with...

but tell you what people...

her mouth is much more filthy than us...

cos she can even say out a long sentence of vulgarities...

tsk3...

how can we handle such people???

just pour DETERGENT in their mouth okok???

nope2...

guess...KEROSENE is better..

hahahahha.....

that's all folks!!!!

***nabeelah.....dont be sad over your problem kk????keep on smiling, sweety....cos your loved ones are still around you to keep loving you!!!!!

especially ME!!!!!heheheheh...muax2!!!***

11:26 PM **

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

this was on monday...

i was dead sleepy sia....

due to what??

due to lack of sleep since saturday...

and that due to thinking too much of mr amdan....

who else???

haix....

so i got "ptosis" on monday....

hahahaha

that is a new term i learnt this week in school!!!!

my cool rox teacher!!!!

the moment lina took out her phone and flash it to her...

she gave a pose to it...

and even told lina to put it up on facebook...

hahahhaha

that was really funny.....

she is really one of a kind........

P10!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but not as rock as p22...

sad huh???

but nvm...

who knows as tym passes....there are sam changes.....

hopefully ya!!!!

lina and me in the toilet!!!!!

here are piqs at canteen 3!!!!

well....just random of us....

hahahahah.....

this was on tuesday!!!!!

hahah....

parames got back from melbourne.....

and she bought us souvenirs....

and like i request for....a koala bear!!!!

and this is wat i got...

a koala bear pencil case!!!

it is very cute!!!!!!!!

hahaha...

even my baby said so.......

lolx.......

lina chose the kangaroo pencil case...

but i guess....

mine still the cutest...

hahahahahah...

sory lina!!!!!

lolx.......
thanks ya parames!!!

just hope u will bring back 1 australian guy for me after finish studying in australia...

hahahah......

and u noe wat??

after school

when i met amdan......

we ate at the teh tarik...

and ths indian girl...

saw my pencil case....

and said the koala bear look the same as mine....

guess she has vision impaired!!

tsk3....

i really pity her....

farah

the innocent nonsense!!!

chris???

what is the matter with you????

and this was ydae!!!!!!

in tutorial class!!!

hahah

mins!!

stop enter frame kk???

after school...

met my mr amdan aka baby aka hubby aka honey b aka....

BABY ORCHID!!!!!!

hahahahahahha

only god noes why i called him orchid now!!!!

hahahahaha......

thats all peeps!!!

11:01 PM **

Sunday, May 17, 2009

i did it again......that is the way, farah....

u're doing great.....

I HATE HIM TO THE MAX PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!

8:10 PM **

Saturday, May 16, 2009

amdan...

may not be perfect....

but to me...

he can be more than just a perfect a guy for me....

sometimes....

i wonder why...

we didnt bump into each other ages ago....

but then, it leads to other areas which make me wonder more...

1) if we happen to bump on each other years back....would he even acknowledge me??

2) if we do acknowlegde one another...would we be together like we are now??

3) if we are together like now years ago....would we last long till today??

4) if we do last till today...would we still be as happy as we are now??

5) if it happens....what will be his next step then??or mine???or ours???

i just hope that we will last till our last breath....

but today.....

suddenly i thot of something....

it would be nice if there are guys who actually...

1)stands by you whenever you're down and happy...

2)will stick with you no matter how bad your arguments are with him

3)will kiss you on the forehead, apologise and say "i love you" to you even if it is not his faults...

4)cries along with you without having to hide anything from you...

5)make you smile when your day are so bad

6)share your tears and smiles all the time

7)will love you no matter how bad the situation is...

8)will never say he hates you even when you had a bad row with him

9)never compared you with his ex-girlfriends and other girls out there

10)respect and accept you the way you are...like you did to him....

but i know.....this will never gonna happen.....so sad...am i right?????

10:38 PM **

Friday, May 15, 2009

here at TIONG BAHRU PLAZA...

with lina and nabeelah....

we are supposed to go to school...but hahahah...ended up...we're here to spend tym first before proceeding to the airport...

but me...

i ended up in jurong with amdan who looked down on me like as im a major WHORE!!!!

wassup with him sia???

i was just furious with him...

and just bcos i gave him a furious looked...he didnt have to say that...

"yalah....when meet me...u will oways put on that shit looked.....when Ismail or Mins or Ur frds around....u will be very happy...and i wonder who u actually meet up just now...."

dont u people feel that as if...he is trying to say that i fling around like dat????

it hurt like hell ok???

and when i reached my place...coincidence i saw my old school mates.....i sat at the void deck with Mal and Ian....

they were my secondary friends ok...

and it has been a long time i didnt talk to them...

but it was my fault too...for not telling him that im with them...

but he didnt have to tell me

"........if now then u decided to tell me....might as well u dont tell me ok??"

it is so....idiotic k......

atleast i still tell him.....

so ungrateful fellow!!!!!

the flower which lina bought for parames.....

me and nabeelah......!!!!

so...off the 2 gals to changi aiport to send Parames off...

"parames....do take care of yourself okok????have fun down there with your loved ones.....have a safe journey to and fro......i love you loads!!!"

11:15 PM **